Killing Eve’s Fall From Grace (Spoilers Ahead)

By Bradi DuGal

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Photo of the River Thames in London, England. Image sourced from Unsplash.

Though it’s been a little over a year since the final episode of BBC Studios’ Killing Eve aired on AMC+, disappointment in how it was handled continues to frustrate many fans of the show, including me. With a whopping 30% audience score on Rotten Tomatoes and a handful of Change.org petitions demanding a rewrite of the ending, it’s safe to say that the finale of the once beloved show not only fell quite short of expectations, but that it flat out failed, despite having the set-up for a decent ending (from the book series on which the show is based, written by Luke Jennings).

For anyone unfamiliar with the series, Killing Eve is, at its core, the archetypal “will they, won’t they?” between two women; a MI6 agent obsessed with hunting down a female assassin (Eve), and the assassin herself (Villanelle). Over the course of the show, we watch them grow closer, even despite their rivalry, and continue to seek each other out. And though we don’t see them share an onscreen kiss until the third episode of season three, the drawn-out story about love and obsession and tension feels real. The pacing is natural.

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The Unapologetic Cancelation of Queer Television

By Bradi DuGal

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Hands holding a paper rainbow heart. Image sourced from Pexels

Within the past year alone, 54 different television shows featuring 140 LGBTQ+ characters have either come to an end/announced their upcoming ending or have been canceled prematurely. From a Netflix teen drama that deals with vampires and monster hunting (First Kill), to an animated cartoon originally featured on Disney+, about a young witch apprentice in a magical realm of curses and queer romance (The Owl House), the LGBTQ+ community has had a particularly rough year with regard to their favorite queer friendly shows being cancelled. And considering how much more accepting society and mass media has become of LGBTQ+ people and their stories in the past several years, this leaves many to question why so many queer fan favorites are being axed at such an alarming rate.

Unfortunately, there isn’t just one particular reason that can be blamed for the mass cancelation of queer television this year, or in the past several years. One explanation often given by Netflix and other streaming platforms is that these shows simply didn’t generate enough viewership and revenue to be worth the production cost. However, even this issue is more complicated than it would seem. For example, the amount of advertising as well as the content of the advertisements released by these streaming platforms can make or break a television show.  Felicia D. Henderson, showrunner on Netflix’s First Kill told The Daily Beast that Netflix’s marketing strategy focused primarily on the show’s lesbian romance rather than the rest of the plot and all of the exciting storylines it had to offer, and in doing so, limited its appeal and reach.

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Taylor Swift and the Battle Against Internalized Misogyny

By Bradi DuGal

On a white background in the middle of the photo is a CD version of Taylor Swift's studio album, Reputation. In the album cover art, she wears a light grey sweater, a choker, and dark lipstick. The photo of her only shows her from chest up. Her hair is slicked back and she is looking into the camera. To the right of her is dozens of small newspaper clippings, many of which show her name. The entire photo is in black and white.
Taylor Swift’s 2017 Album, Reputation. Image sourced from Unsplash.

Between the release of her most recent album, Midnights, and the kick off of The Eras Tour this month, it seems as though Taylor Swift may be, arguably, at the height of her career. However, it hasn’t always been this way; for a decent part of her career, she has been one of the most consistently disliked and yet highly acclaimed artists of our generation. In this post, I’m going to be giving a brief overview of her career and accomplishments, as well as discussing the mass critique, to put it lightly, that she’s received. Critique which, according to many, can be largely attributed to internalized misogyny. It’s this internalized misogyny, in combination with other factors, that is the primary lens that I’ll be using to analyze the mass distaste for the singer-songwriter.

Taylor Swift’s career really took off following the release of her second studio album in 2008, Fearless; for this album alone, she won four separate Grammy Awards, one of which was Album of the Year, among other awards. Due to the lack of strong language in her music, as well as a lack of so-called “sexualized image,” it was around this time that Swift really started to be widely associated with this sort of “good girl” image, which certainly helped her early success and garnered support for her among younger and teen girls.

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Teen Girls are in a Mental Health Crisis

By Bradi DuGal

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A sign with the message “self care isn’t selfish”. Image sourced from Pexels.

According to a new CDC report comprised of data from the start of the COVID-19 pandemic, teenage girls are experiencing concerning levels of sadness, hopelessness, and depression, with nearly three in five girls feeling this way. According to the report, this number is up almost 60% from 2011, just ten years ago. But it doesn’t stop there, unfortunately; the CDC also found that more than one in four girls seriously considered suicide in 2021, also up nearly 60% from 2011, and that more than one in ten attempted suicide, up 30% from 2011.

The report doesn’t explain why these numbers are skyrocketing, however, it does provide information about a couple of potential factors; first, the levels of sexual violence being experienced by teenage girls is also increasing each year, with about one in five experiencing this type of violence in the past year, which is up 20% since 2017. Additionally, more than one in ten girls reported having been, at some point, forced to have sex. This number is up 27% from 2019, when the CDC first began monitoring this phenomenon Aside from sexual violence, the report clarifies that a combination of several complex factors can put youth at risk for depression, suicide, substance use, poor academic performance, and more. It also explains that alcohol use is higher among teen girls than teen boys, a fact that is widely backed by other researchers and organizations.

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A Haunting Story Turned Heartwarming

By Bradi DuGal

A television is the main focal point of the photo, placed against a dark grey background. On the screen, it says, "HBO Original The Last of Us". A hand is pointing at the television from the lower left corner and is holding a black remote.
The Last of Us being played on a television. Image sourced from Shutterstock

Warning: Spoilers for HBO’s The Last of Us, Episode 3

The Last of Us has been one of the most well-loved and awarded game franchises in history. It captures the audience with stunning depictions of terrifying monsters, world-ending infections, human relationships, and even a moral dilemma or two. Since the release of the first game in 2013, it’s also garnered admiration from players and fans alike through its inclusion of LGBTQ+ characters and even more so in the second game, released in 2020. The recent HBO adaptation of the franchise took a daring leap from the tragic but brief queer love story written for the game and made what might just be one of the most stunning and impactful love stories ever written, all in less than an hour and twenty minutes.

The first game introduces a paranoid, survival focused man named Bill who lives alone in a town that he’s fortified with traps and bombs, twenty years into the pandemic that changed the world as these characters knew it. In this part of the game, players can learn a little more about Bill; specifically, that prior to living in complete solitude, he had a partner: Frank. Players quickly find out, however, that they split due primarily to Bill’s fear of vulnerability and loss. It gets more tragic than that, however, as players eventually discover Frank’s body after he ends his own life. In the end, it’s obvious that Bill is destined to spend the rest of his life completely alone and focused only on his own survival.

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We Are More than Just a Coming Out Story

By Bradi DuGal

Over this past Winter Break, I had the opportunity to watch and enjoy a handful of heartwarming holiday movies with my girlfriend and her family. On one night in particular, we landed on Happiest Season, a queer holiday movie released in 2020 about a young woman named Abby who accompanies her girlfriend, Harper, to her family Christmas. The audience quickly finds out, as does Abby herself, that Harper has yet to come out to her conservative family, let alone tell them about their relationship. Throughout the vast majority of the film, the two women struggle to show each other affection while also hiding it from the rest of the family. This leaves Abby feeling drained, frustrated, and stuck back in the closet she had long since broken free from. In the end, after nearly losing Abby altogether, Harper eventually does come out to her family, though this only comes after being outed by her sister during a major fight.

A photo of two women gazing at each other. The woman on the left is wearing a black shirt with a grey sweater and has brown shoulder-length hair. The woman on the left is wearing a dark grey shirt and a black jacket. She has blonde shoulder length hair. Both women are sitting and holding hands in front of a decorated Christmas tree with silver and gold ornaments.
Still of Harper (left) and Abby (right), the protagonists from 2020 film Happiest Season. Image sourced from Flickr.

As a gay woman who’s been out of the closet for years, I finished the movie feeling exhausted and let down by yet another queer film that relied on an over-used, dramatic coming out storyline. A storyline which largely minimizes the LGBTQ+ community to that single experience, implying that that is the most interesting and noteworthy thing about us and our lives. Not only that, but it also centers our story on the heterosexual people around us, ensuring that even in our own stories, we are somehow not the main focus. Many would claim, me included, that these storylines are Hollywood’s attempt at making queer experiences more palatable and relatable to their straight audience, who otherwise, would never be included or see themselves represented in any of these experiences.

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Give this ‘90s LGBT Musical a Listen

A spray painted outline of Hedwig, the main character of the show, on a colorful wall.
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By Travis Gray 

Hedwig and the Angry Inch. Quite the provocative title! I will say, if you liked the Rocky Horror Picture Show, you’ll love this musical. It’s in the same genre of rock opera and is written by a queer person. Let me give you a little history on it! It was created by John Cameron Mitchell and was released off-Broadway in 1998, then adapted to film in 2001. It hit Broadway in 2014 and went on national tour in 2016. Now, it’s being played in various theaters all around the world. 

What I love about Hedwig and the Angry Inch is the music. Right now, it’s all that I’ve been blasting through my ears. It scratches a specific itch in my ears that just energizes me and fills me with a weird and powerful vigor. When listening to it, I’m just ready to take on the world. As a trans person, I can relate to a lot of the lyrics and the feelings around gender. While I can’t relate quite to Hedwig’s journey, there are many familiar aspects of queer love and gender questions that feel very universal. My favorite song, Origin of Love, takes Plato’s Symposium and adds a punk rock spin to it… while keeping it beautiful and elegant. The way this song conceptualizes queer love into words and a gorgeous harmony is just breathtaking. It has its moments of calm that rise with energy and crash into a fiery flame. I really recommend giving it a listen, the whole playlist is great! My second favorite song is for sure Tear Me Down, which feels like a challenge for the world to try and take my identity away from me. 

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Hair: The Personal, the Political, the Buzz Cut

By Skyler Ting

Green tinted image of a person buzzing their dark hair. The clipper moves toward the back of the head. Unshaven hair peaks out on the side and back of the head as the person looks downward, feeling the back with one hand to guide the clippers. Both arms are raised and bent toward the head. Shadows are cast on the wall behind them.
Buzz cut ritual, 2018, Seattle, WA; image taken by Diamond Fields. 

How one wears their hair is a personal expression of the self. Both an expression of one’s unique biology as well as a part of how one performs their unique identity: their relationship with their hair, the rituals and care given to their hair, and even those days when you say “f**k it” and put it up or under a hat, our hair choices are very personal. So very personal that we do not usually look at the way hair choices may be an expression of group identity, may be influenced by beauty trends or standards, or may be guided by our socio-economic class, gender, how we are racialized by others, etc. Hair is also political and social. Throughout the past few years, as we’ve navigated COVID-19, quarantine, and social distancing, we can see how hair choices are impacted by both the personal and the political. One trend coming to the forefront is that of the buzz cut.  

The buzz cut is iconic and it’s traceable through several groups and histories. From the traditional military buzz cut, to the punk-aesthetic, to the social identifier as a skinhead, to the rich LGBTQ history of hair as a signifier, to cancer awareness movements, the buzz cut has seen its day in various political statements and social environments. You’re probably familiar with the public scrutiny of Britney Spears’ fresh buzz, largely seen as a symptom of an epic meltdown. Yet, with recent news surfacing about Spears’ plight over the years and her newfound freedom from conservatorship, it begs the question: was her buzz cut an act of “going off the rails” or an act of reclaiming the autonomy that she was denied? The unfolding of this story aligns with the rising trend of the buzz cut as many folks embrace the “daring” hairstyle in rejection of beauty standards that they’ve felt beholden to, choosing the hairstyle as a reclamation of the self. For some, the buzz cut is an act of liberation. It can also be an act of transition. Whether you are transitioning away from toxic beauty standards, transitioning into your gender identity, transitioning toward embracing your natural hair, or simply transitioning to the easy maintenance lifestyle, the buzz cut is a fresh start from which to grow. Each of these transitions and potentials for growth come with their own diverse array of meaning, challenges, and joys.  

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Latinx Women and Mental Health

Guest post by Jennifer Gil
Women’s Center student staff member

Young woman seated at a table in a dimly-lit room, slumped over with her head resting on one arm.
“Making It Alone” by Lauren Rushing
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As we celebrate women’s history month, I decided it would be fitting to center my student-led project around Latinx women and Latinx queer women. As someone who shares those intersecting identities, I always have felt it important to represent my community. This is a way to contribute significantly not only to the representation of Latinx women but also to touch on an under-discussed topic, their mental health outcomes. This month, I have been engaging a social media campaign to provide Latinx women with resources and information to better care for their mental health.

The intersecting identities of Latinx women and Latinx queer women are often oppressed by cultural structures and norms both specific to and external to the community. Latinx women are socialized to uphold values rooted in machismo. Their role in a cultural context is to provide for their families as primary caregivers. Therefore, women in the culture are often most valued when they self-silence and self-regulate at the expense of their own authenticity. These cultural expectations can come with a huge mental health burden. Not only do Latinx women have to navigate a culturally oppressive society, but also a society dominated by patriarchal and heteronormative expectations. It is difficult to live in such a repressive climate that offers little to no representation. I have included some Instagram accounts below for Latinx women and queer women to follow so that they may feel represented and in turn empowered.

For eating disorder awareness and body positivity: @nalgonapositivitypride
Justice, Liberation and Queer representation: @brownbadassbonita

Now let’s explore the general stigmatization of mental health in Latinx communities. This stigmatization is largely due to the attribution of mental health signs as personality characteristics. For example, when someone’s mental health is not being managed, they might withdraw from family activities. As a result of familismo (a core value in Latinx culture), withdrawing from family can be interpreted as the person not being outgoing or family-oriented. This is a simple example, but it is important to note that these interpretations are rooted in cultural values. Although family members have good intentions at heart, they have been culturally and systematically socialized to respond in this way.

The question that arises is how do we work through this stigmatization of mental health so that we can better care for ourselves and our familia? The first step is learning self-validation. Many of us growing up were taught the phrase “échale ganas” which roughly translates to “make a good effort”.  Although this phrase is symbolic of the resilience of those in our culture, it further invalidates the struggles that we experience as marginalized people. We don’t always have the ability or the resources to overcome difficulties on our own. It is important however, to practice self-validation so you can better understand when to reach out to your support system. Selfvalidation involves accepting your own internal experience, your thoughts, and your feelings. This can be difficult for those who did not grow up in an environment that encouraged self-validation. That is why it can be beneficial for a professional to provide validation for us. This is where therapy comes into play.

As a result of misconceptions around therapeutic resources, seeking therapy is often a last resort for Latinx individuals. In Latinx culture, seeking therapy is often interpreted as not being competent enough to deal with our own struggles. In addition, a lack of exposure to therapy and psychological concepts creates confusion around what steps to take when reaching out for help. A general and the most common question I hear from people in my community is, “How do I know if I need therapy?”

According to the American Psychological Association there are two general guidelines to consider. First, is the problem distressing? Second, is it interfering with some aspect of life? Answering yes to either of these questions suggests that the problem is worth exploring in therapy.

Finding a therapist to begin with can be a very daunting task. It is important to learn more about a therapist’s credentials, and specializations before having a consultation. It is equally important to note that therapists will not always be a perfect match, they know this, and you should, too! For more tips about how to find a therapist watch this informative video from LatinxTherapy.

Spring Break Down

By Jonna Leavitt

Spring break is right around the corner, my dudes and dudettes. Typically held in March, spring break is a sacred holiday to all of those who are in school, from elementary to college. While this interval away from school and classes can be used to work and make some extra money, visit family or friends, spring clean, or simply get some relaxation in, it is often associated with vacationing in the sunshine and drinking… a lot.  With college students as the primary participants, spring break is a time to get some sun, hangout on the beach, drink alcohol, and possibly participate in hook-up culture.

A picture of people standing on a dock. A man is jumping off of the dock into the water. The background contains a blue cloudy sky, slightly choppy water, and a mountain in the distance.
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Due to the debaucherous behaviors that spring breaking brings out in people, it also has some pretty controversial and sexist stigmas. When you search on the Internet for “spring breaking for women,” or some similar variation of this, three types of websites pop up, not including recommended destinations for spring breaking.

  1. Marketing and Advertisements for Spring Break Clothes

Most predominantly, links to different stores selling spring break outfits and clothes for women pop up. The stores marketing spring break wear offer limited time sales and seasonal spring break collections that are put together for the holiday. Often included in spring break collections are impractical swimsuits (meant for lounging, with minimal movement, rather than swimming), cheaply made shoes that are likely to fall apart, see-through/minimal material clothing items, and dresses (so many dresses). Women are a big target for marketing strategies like these, and it is due to expectations for how women are supposed to dress for events like spring break. But overall, if you look at the collections put together for spring break, do they really differ that much from what you already own for the summer season/vacation? The answer is no, the items sold for spring break, marketed as a part of a spring break collection, and summer are almost identical.

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